Monday, August 15, 2011

Jealousy Is A Bitter Pill

I’m taking a break from the Hijacked Hiatus series today just to say thank GOD for my Hubby!  Believe me, there is probably nobody more shocked to read that statement than him!!  But really, I have nobody to thank but him for getting me back to running again.  I’d love to say it’s been all me, I’ve turned over a new leaf, I’ve realized the error of my ways and want to do better, but no…it comes from a place far more competitive than that.

Hubby had his second Fathers Day this year and as a little treat Brenna and I got him a gym membership.  Now before you “tsk tsk” me thinking I was sending a mean message with that gift, he ASKED for it.  Maybe not outright, but through loud unequivocal hints for the weeks leading up to Fathers Day.  I was interested to see how he was going to deal with work, looking after Brenna on his days off while I working, and also squeezing time in for the gym.   And when I say “interested” we all know I mean that, sadly, I was kind of hoping he would struggle a little, like I did trying to squeeze in time for running while on maternity leave.  Well, I made the rookie wife mistake of doubting his time management skills and dedication.  I forgot that when Hubby decides to do something, he can’t just half-a#$ it, he has to go into it full throttle; no ifs, ands or buts about it.

Despite the fact that it had been three years since he last ran, Hubby decided he was going to start a workout routine that included going to the gym when he had childcare for Brenna and running on the other days.  Knowing how much he hates running, I was shocked.  Despite an even bigger fact that he pokes constant fun of me for my weeknight routine (of making lunches, setting the coffee maker, ironing clothes, putting away laundry, etc) to ensure I have more time in the morning, Hubby even started setting out his running clothes the night before as well as his shower gear and uniform so that he can get up at the crack of dawn, run, then come home to shower and go to work for 615am.  ????   Who is this guy?  Seriously…he gets up, on his own, of his own free will and volition, and runs before 5am.  On purpose.  To top it off, he then works a 12hour shift afterward.  Stunned is more appropriately the word I would use to describe my reaction to his new routine. 

You early morning runners are a complete mystery to me…I have no idea how you do it.  I mean, I can barely get myself out of bed to go to work let alone wake up earlier to RUN first.  I tried one summer to get up and run before work when it was cool outside because it was summertime and the weather was too hot to run after work.  I lasted one morning only.  I thought I was going to fall back asleep before I even hit the halfway mark.  Not to mention I ran slower than I could ever have imagined but thought I was FLYING!  So I decided that running in the heat, fully awake and aware was better than running (or moon-walking) in the early morning hours, who knows what I did in my half-dozed state!

The biggest advantage to Hubby’s zealous running habit is obviously the impact it will have on his overall health.  But a spinoff advantage has been the jealousy effect it has had on me.  When he lasted more than a week in the new routine I started to get a little envious that he was out running and I wasn’t.  More than envious, I started to get outright mad!  There was NO reason I couldn’t run too whenever I wanted, I just put up my own “excuse” walls and pretended it wasn’t feasible.  The best thing about having a personality like mine is that when I feel like I have something to prove to someone, I prove it.  I don’t stop until I feel like I’ve shown what I’m made of.  In this case, I needed to show Hubby that he could run all he wanted, but nothing would change the fact that I am the runner in the relationship, I am the dedicated one, I am the passionate one who loves to run, I am the one that will go out in rain, shine or blizzard to run, and I am the one that can be counted on to run on a regular basis.  I am more me when I’m running!  And I had to prove to Hubby that this was still the case!

So whether he intended to or not, he really got me out of my “life’s too busy to run” mode and proved that no matter what our schedule looks like, we can always run.  And as grateful as I am that he stepped up his game forcing me to step up my own, I still feel like I have the edge over him…he’s yet to push Brenna in the stroller on a run, so as of now I’m still the “tougher” runner in the relationship and I plan to keep it that way!  Look out hubby, you’ve created a monster!

Today's Run: 3K/19:42/6:34 pace

Thursday, August 11, 2011

Hijacked Hiatus Part One - Travelling SuperMom

As I said in my last post, we’ve been a busy little family over the last three months with travelling, minor illness and my return to work.  I’ll keep you posted on my recent running and give you a few little updates over the next few posts in a series I’ll call “Hijacked Hiatus” to get you all back up to speed because it just won’t all fit in one post. 

On running: I ran twice in July (pathetic, I know) but I’ve run twice so far this week.  Despite not having run for a little while both runs felt great!  Fresh legs are the main contributing factor to that but it could also be a result of the moderate pace I chose and the limited mileage (I did an easy 2.5K each time).  I’ve decided to ease myself back into running this week with low clicks and a breezy pace.  Starting next week I’ll have to ramp things up a little because my galpal (who had her sweet baby girl, Macy, in May) and I are going to run a 5K race with our strollers in a mere five weeks time (38 days to be exact).  She has just started running again and is currently doing the walk-and-run combination on her treadmill to get herself back in gear.  She’s probably reading this now and thinking, “Why do you need to ramp up? You’re already running, I’m the one not even running outside yet!”  And that’s true.  Buuuuuut, if you remember my post about strolling along with friends back in March...she’s the one with the uber-light Mountain Buggy stroller, which is now paired with an uber-light 12 pound baby.  I, on the other hand, have the second hand, no idea what brand, Kijiji special for a jogging stroller weighing in at 20 pounds, paired with a 27 pound baby.  So, even though I’m running further than her right now, I’m also pushing 47 additional pounds along the way.  I have a feeling by race day she’ll be flying with her bundle while I pant and pray for the finish line.

(On that note, my other galpals with babes beware – this is your warning...we want mommy and baby running buddies for the race...tag, you’re it!)

Now onto my hijacked hiatus stories...let’s start with our trip west back in May: I can now officially say that I have travelled across the country with a one year old, which means I can do anything.  ANYTHING.  AnYtHiNg. 

Before this trip I thought I’d seen it all because I travel for my job several times a year.  Hubby has seen quite a bit too because he’s enjoyed the “tag-along” aspect on many occasions, accompanying me on my travels so he could see the sights and relish the attractions in cities coast to coast in Canada.  Moreover, he’s enjoyed the opportunity to try local microbrewery beers in each city and take in the NHL and MLB games. 

So, in having so much prior travel experience I thought I had things down pat.  Lock, stock and barrel I thought I’d learned all the lessons to be learned on the road.  Well, add a one year old to the mix and I was sorely mistaken.

We embarked on a ten day trip that would take us to three cities, starting with a four hour drive to the airport.  The drive was great, old hat.  Brenna slept only an hour of it so I thought, “Perfect, she’ll have a longer nap on the plane!”  That was my first mistake. 


We boarded the first two hour flight to Toronto and within minutes Brenna was unhappy.  Were her ears bothering her?  No, they weren’t.  Was her tummy upset?  No, it wasn’t.  What WAS bothering her was being forced to sit in her parent’s lap.  She decided that instead of taking a nap on the flight (like sooooo many people told me she would do) she would hone her “act-like-an-orangutan” skills and attempt fleeing us by lurching in all directions and grabbing anything she could to help maneuver herself away from the safety of our laps - the backs of seats, the food and beverage cart the flight attendant was pushing, other people as they walked by to go to the bathroom, the hair of the lady sitting in front of us…basically anything within grasp.  That got tiring, FAST. 

What she wanted was to play on the floor of the plane, and of course being the type of Momma that I am (using antibacterial wipes on everything she touches outside our home), I indignantly rejected any idea of letting her play on the dirty, almost-never-cleaned airplane floor full of leftover food and foot funk from previous passengers.  I mean, what kind of mother allows their one year old to play on the floor of a very often used, very public place?  Certainly not THIS mother!  So, we fought and wrestled with an agitated Brenna for two hours and I thanked Jesus about a million times when we got to our stopover in Toronto. 

Now we were in the airport with Brenna in tow, safely and securely in her stroller.  Of course Brenna didn’t see it that way, she saw the stroller was another “restraint” device and was insistent on getting out.  My only saving grace was knowing that our next flight was a mere hour away so we wouldn’t have long to wait with our little stroller-Houdini.   

Obviously a happier day in the restraint device

Lo and behold to our “delight” the stopover that was supposed to be a little less than an hour turned into two and a half hours due to delays. So there we sat with Brenna strapped into her little stroller, waiting. During the waiting time Brenna made every move possible to escape her stroller and play on the floor. Again…an airport floor was NOT a place I was willing to let her “run free”, so we fought her. And fought. Aaaaaaand fought. By the time our plane arrived at 8pm, Brenna’s usual bedtime, I was thanking Jesus again that we could get on, get moving, and get Brenna to go to sleep. That was mistake number two.

By flight number two, a glorious three and a half hours to Saskatoon, she was a) tired from not having her two usual two hour naps (yes, four hours of napping); b) tired because it was now her nightly bedtime; and c) agitated from not being allowed to play on the floors of the airplane and airport.  She was beyond the eye rubbing kind of tired, and in full whiny baby tired mode so as soon as we began takeoff, I fed her to lull her to sleep.  It worked!  For about five seconds.  Then she woke up, fierce like a Lion, and decided that she just couldn’t sleep on a plane, in her momma’s arms through all the commotion. 

So, having become an expert orangutan from her first flight, she now went into full on ape#@!!% mode.  She lost her cool COMPLETELY.  She started crying like someone was hurting her, throwing a full tantrum at having to sit in our lap and would NOT STOP CRYING.  And screaming.  And shouting.  After the first half hour, I started crying.  As I sat staring out the window, silently sobbing and desperately praying for the flight to end I found myself thanking Jesus again.  This time I was thanking him for the fact that we were in the air and I had no way to escape, because had we been on land I’m not sure I would have stuck around...Hubby just MAY have become a single dadda that day!!  As I listened to the people in rows behind us grumbling and loudly pondering things like, “When is that baby going to stop crying?” I had to fight the urge to stand up and say, “I dunno! But if you think you can make her stop, please come and try!” 

In that dark moment I decided enough was enough.  Fine, give her what she wants.  Let her play on the floor.  Let her swing from the ceiling and grab everything in sight.  Let her be the stewardess’ human speed bump in the aisles.  Let her find the magical “floor food” and devour it.  Let her crawl under the seats and play “tickle tickle” with strangers toes.  Fine Brenna, you win.  We spent the last hour of the flight numbly watching her do all the things I so harshly criticized a mere hours before as I sat in the first airport silently judging the mom who let her kids play in the KidZone without first wiping everything down with a Clorox wipe.  The same mom, I recalled, who was able to sit pleasantly skimming a magazine while her kids were NOT throwing tantrums and acting like animals but were lovingly sharing toys and gleefully playing their way through the wait time.  Come to think of it, they were giggling and people around us were looking at them with the standard head-turned-to-one-side –“How precious!”-smiles, instead of muttered curses and scowlse were getting.  God, I envied that mom. 

At the end of the day when we finally landed in Saskatoon to be picked up by my brother and his girlfriend, we were exhausted.  I couldn’t even muster a response beyond a cold stare when he asked, “How was the flight?”  But in the end all that was important was that we got there safely, Brenna could finally get into her little playpen for some much needed sleep, and I got out of my “stress haze” enough to remember who Jesus was and that I should thank him that it was finally OVER.

A cuter moment from our trip

To sum up the day and provide myself evidence based data to review the next time I feel like taking Brenna on a trip somewhere, I did a little tally to help me make my decision:
  • Number of hours Brenna slept during transition:   1
  • Number of words spoken between Hubby and myself during the entirety of the day:   10
  • Number of times we received blantant stern looks or scowling glances:   In the teens
  • Number of times a stranger had their toes tickled, hair pulled or shirt grabbed by Brenna:   8
  • Number of times I wished I could run away:   3
  • Number of flight attendants that gave us pitying looks while telling us, “No, she’s not that  bad, really!”:   2
  • Number of trips we plan on ever taking her on again:   0
  • Number of people that wished they’d picked any other flight that day:   All of them
  • Number of times I thanked the WestJet employee that gave us a “free pass” to take Brenna’s car seat on board  for our return flight after hearing our harrowing tale to prevent a repeat performance:   Too many to count!

Last night's run: 2.5K/16:33/6:37 pace

My little WestJet-ter

Monday, August 8, 2011

Be Right There!

Hey, it's me, Joggin' Momma!!  Remember me?  Yes? No? Maybe? HOPEFULLY!  So...I've been on hiatus since returning to work in mid-May and my little bambina turning one, but this week I'm coming back!! 

Things in our little world got CRAZY around mid-May and have been taking seemingly forever to get back to normal.  To recap - we took a whirlwind trip to the wild, wild west of Canada where Brenna (for the first time in her life) proved that she could indeed be a difficult child; where Hubby picked up the nastiest eye infection I've ever seen that has led to him now having an ulcer on his eye...that he will have for life; and where I picked up...the MUMPS.  Yes, in the year 2011 people apparently still get the Mumps, I am living breathing proof.  Against my better judgement in my next post where I really break down what we've been up to, I'll post a couple of Mumps pictures for you all.  It'll be a real treat, I promise!!

Since recovering from said trip, eye infection and Mumps, we then all came down with pretty bad colds (for summertime) and my darling little girl has broken through eight teeth (yes, eight teeth in just over two months).  At this moment she is breaking through four more (two eye teeth and two molars) and let me tell you, she is feeling the pain!  Today she screeched from 545am until she finally fell asleep for a nap at 4pm. 

BUT...in spite of it all I've gone for two runs and am going again tonight.  After getting sick (Mumps sick) it took me a really long time to a) get my stamina and energy back, b) feel better enough to get out and go, and c) produce enough saliva so that my mouth wasn't so cactus-like while running (too much information, but hey, I lived it you just have to read about it!) so it wasn't until July that I got back to running, and any other routine as well! 

Now that I'm on the mend and I feel like I've had enough time to transition to being back at work (gosh, I'm realizing how much I have to fill you all in about!!) and it's really time to get back to jogging...and of course, to what really makes me get out and run...blogging about it!!  Hopefully you'll all stay tuned as my crazy new-momma-on-the-run adventure continues!!

Recent Runs: 2x2.5K/17:33 and 16:37/7:01 and 6:39 paces